it juz never came...

was wide awake last nite... mum came it n rattle on how late already... still dun wan to slp... i've no more energy to argue with her anymore... so i off my com, tv, lights... laid dwn awake on my bed... but somehow... i still fell aslp... i guess i cried too much le ba...

i think he's in pasir ris now... waiting for fast craft... no he din call mi... neither did he msg mi... was reading his blog juz now... duno y... a sense of hopelessness juz came to mi... i cannot feel that he care for mi anymore... or will b there for mi anymore... i guess my mum was too much for him to handle... everytime my fone rang... let it b a fone call or msg... my heart will tells mi... ok... it might b him... but every single time... my heart will sank... its not him...

thinking abt wad marcus n bz told mi last nite... let urself b calm 1st... let him think thru in camp 1st... dun make a decision so fast... thanz guys... =]... i noe i can find real frens to tok to... will try not to cry so much... i guess when my tears runs dry... i oso can't cry anymore....